Well, my beautiful babies. So ends the first year of my college career. I gotta say, it has been nothing but a whirlwind of terrifying and exciting events, one right after the other. Keep in mind I'm coming from a rather emotional place. My head is still throbbing from my last final exam, my room is barely packed, I've said goodbye to new friends I was so scared I wouldn't find. And to top it all off, I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that I am 25% done with my college experience.
I hate lying to you people. I know we don't know each other personally-- though I don't know how that would change things much, I tell you all everything, practically. But if there is one thing I refuse to withhold from you, it is the truth. So I am going to be frank with you all.
College is difficult. Not just upper-level, 300-page, advanced level IV difficult. But it is emotionally, spiritually, and socially draining. And it can be very scary. At least in my experience, I have gone from knowing the middle names of each and every one of my classmates to being too frightened to ask the girl next to me for a spare pencil. I've roomed for months with someone I had never met before, I've had my fair share of late nights in a city I have never lived in, and I have opened up my eyes and heart to people I really have no particular reason to trust. But that is life, my friends. Life, like college, can be new and exciting and scary if you allow it to be. And you should! As much as my wonderfully, theatrically trained mind has become accustomed to rehearsing, there is no script, no screenplay, no stage direction for the way the world turns. You're going to encounter people who don't fit your character list, places too complex for your blocking, and impromptu scenarios you never thought would ever make their way into your story. But one thing you can control is whether you take it as exciting or you close the door, hide under your covers, and refuse to face it. I urge you to do the former. Because when you decide to turn away from the bad, you have a much higher chance of missing out on the good.
Looking back on this year, I want to say that if I were to summarize all that I have learned into one sentence it would be this one:
Everything is going to be ok.
Yes, yes, it's so cliché, it hurts even me. But that doesn't make it any less true. It is no secret that life has its low points. Just in this year I have seen more broken hearts than I thought possible...more loss than anyone should ever have to bear. I have been more unsure in this past year about certain things than I ever thought I could be. But if there's one thing that will never, ever change, is that everything has the potential to be ok.
You will find love again. You will find joy again. You will laugh again, I guarantee it.
You remember this fact, and you can get through almost anything.
As I mentioned before, emotions, emotions, emotions. So many have been biting at my heels this past week. I'm sure it's reflected in my post.
All in all, I am very excited to continue to share what all I have done/will get myself into in the near future. But I thought it necessary to fill you in on this little secret I've learned while being in this enchanted, faraway land they call university.
Bibbity, Bobbity, Everything is going to be ok. Boo!
Now breathe a sigh of relief, and relish in the magic that is life, my friends!
Xoxo,
Ale
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