Decisions, Decisions.

    There are many things that mark the passing of time and the start of a new chapter of your life. For some, it’s in the number of candles you find burning on the top of a fluffy white birthday cake. For others, it’s the finding of yourself in people you once never knew and for some reason can’t recall why you hadn’t been friends before. It's the new relationships, the new environments, the new habits, and the new memories.
     For me, it has come to the decisions we are forced to make as individuals. Decisions as in the nearly- painful reminders that you can’t spend all day under your covers avoiding reality. But one day you’re going to realize that you have to start making decisions for yourself because surprise! No one else will/can make them for you. For someone who turns to everyone around her for advice when deciding on almost everything, this was a rather rude awakening. Not that I enjoy waking up in the first place (see previous post).

    I find myself asking questions. Scary ones, too. Who do I turn to? This college? That college? Him? Her? Tonight? Tomorrow? For now? For forever? Am I really the only one who can determine the outcome of this situation? Yes? Well all right then. I’m screwed.

    And that lost feeling. The completely ambiguous end of the road you find yourself on without good cell service or a map. That’s pretty freaking scary, I’m not going to lie to you, my lovelies. My advice? Well, I don’t have too much today, because I find myself a bit confused, to be completely honest. But what I can say is how I’ve been coping is a great playlist, some good food, and an uplifting friend who will take your side at that moment in time, no matter what. No judgments, no scolding, no advising. Just good old-fashioned support.

    Perhaps what I can conclude is a few small tidbits. Maybe you’ll find them helpful. Or entertaining. I’ll leave that up to you.

• Nothing, no matter how crazy it may seem at that moment, is so terrible that it is completely impossible to overcome. 
• A good song might not fix it, but it helps.It's like a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle Band-Aid, only better. 
• You're not always going to have the answers. Allow yourself to be clueless for a bit. It can be quite refreshing. 
• Sometimes, you have to start at point A again. But that's ok. Beause that means that you have the intention of moving forward, of letting life continue. And you must never lose hope in that opportunity. 

Now go lose yourselves, my crazies. 

Xoxo,

Ale